It was all a dream.
I dreamt I signed a contract to teach abroad. I dreamt I was offered more money than I make here. I dreamt I would have flight allowances to travel the world, a bonus each year, and housing provided for my family. It was all a dream.
Yet, you’ve seen a picture of me signing a contract, right? Today, that contract was rescinded and I am no longer headed to the UAE. My dream has been put on hold. The Abu Dhabi Education Council has decided they hired too many people so they cut a few.
Crying and shaking I ran out of my building today, hoping no one would notice. As soon as I sat in my car, it started to downpour. I cried a good five minutes with the rain concealing me from others walking out of work. How? Why?
I called my husband and choked out the news. I text my interview friends for support. I checked the 2016 Abu Dhabi groups on fb and found I was not the only one – so far I’ve counted 20 teachers who got the same sad news. What a cruel joke.
I am not going to be a teacher for ADEC. Not this year, anyway. I’m not sure if ever. My heart feels a little broken. I’m upset for my family and the tears I may have caused others who were trying to make peace with our decision to move. I’m upset for my husband who did so much running around to get our paperwork together. I’m upset that I sold my favorite blue chair and beautiful swirly mirror during one of our yard sales! I am so lucky my kids don’t quite get where we were headed or I’d be upset for them too.
Is this a sign? Do I keep applying and searching for a job abroad? Or do I stay put here in New York, where I have a perfectly good job? Is this a dream deferred? Or canceled?